It’s crazy to think it’s the spring of 2016. I feel like yesterday I was worrying that 2016 was too big a number. Usually, I am all excited about the new year. I feel like there are unlimited possibilities, always curious what might happen. 2015 was a great year for me. I was working full-time the entire year which made me feel so much more secure and independent. I was saving money, making plans, paying those student loans... I scored my dream job over the summer and everything just felt right. I had been fighting for so long to get to where I am. Long nights, worry, never enough money, wondering what will happen. But I am someone that loves having a goal. Something to strive for. So now that 2016 has rolled around, I have been wondering what’s next? There is no big finish line-graduate college, finish grad school, get the dream job. I should be so happy to not be furiously treading water to just keep my head up. It can be hard to not have that one goal where everything can fall back as long as you’re headed toward that one thing. Now, I am worrying about everything. Should I be eating better, exercising more, getting more sleep, picking up fresh flowers on the weekend? Maybe, this is holding myself up to an unrealistic standard, an Instagram filter. The day-to-day can be hard. I’m always telling myself that I can just try again tomorrow.
So with this new spring, I’m going to start spring cleaning my everyday. Does every day need to be perfect? No, but I do want to have a little more routine, to give myself time to find new hobbies, try new things, see new places. Otherwise, I’d just be crashing on the couch after work every night. A few times on this blog I’ve made some seasonal goals. A few of them still remain on the list. I think I’ll try to tackle those. Have a Marie Kondo weekend. And really just try to make my bed every morning.
It’s funny how the big things can feel easier to accomplish than the small ones.